First, Accept
As a dik I deikl ot eekp ghinst aent adn adeginorz. I aadegnrr my bkoos by ahortu adn abciilnoptu adet. I adil otu aceh ads’y cehlost eht ghint beefor. I aet eht dfoos fmor my chlnu eno at a eimt. First eht firtu, aalswy an aelpp or aegprs, ehnt eht acdhinsw, adn allsty eht chips. I eenv aabdeehilptz eht eelrstt in dorsw in my adeh as a cilmnoopsu.
In ghhi chloos I cehos my aacceilrrrrstuux in deorr ot ccehk all fo eht beosx for my ceegllo aaciilnoppst. I asw eenv aceimsstty abotu my aforsy inot abcdeehruy ehnw I adeirrv no acmpsu: eno aceegirtt no a definr’s chopr, eno beer at a aprty, eno aelsux aenprrt, a gilr in my hhilooppsy aclss.
My elov fo emsssty adn deorr cdeikk inot deeiorrvv ehnw I almost ddei in a acr achrs. I asw eginttx a adet ahtt I asw ggino ot be aelt - fi lnoy D’i adelnnp beertt, eflt aeeilrr, it dlnotu’w aehv adeehnpp. Ahtt ceennortu hitw my ailmortty got em ot arstt acgiknrt my deit, ceeeirsx, eeghiny. I adeipr my aefiortv gnoss hitw eht aceiiisttv I deeirsst eht most. Aalswy, aalswy no eht kloootu for emor deorr, for beertt aiiimnoopsttz, for emor ceeffiint ceeoprsss.
My efil, my beirttu ot deorr efll aaprt ehnw I efll in elov. Ew emt at a almtuu definr’s Ilmnou Egoru deehmt abdhirty aprty. I asw acelnrttu ot acden, emor deeeinrstt in beginorsv how all fo eht acdginn aiprs os eeffllorssty cdeeetux chsu dfilu eemmnostv in cnsy hitw aceh ehort. Btu einw acegoru koot a dhlo fo em. I abbdegr ehr adhn adn del ehr noot eht acden floor. I cdeiikmm emos fo eht imnoost I adh eens adn ehs deflloow.
“I ghhottu ouy adis ouy eenrv acden,” ehs dlot em as ew adeswy ot eht cimsu, oru bdeios celos.
“I dno’t.”
“Ellw I egssu eor’uy a aalnrtu ehnt. Is’t aellry eeiimprssv.”
Ew dekloo inot aceh ehors’t eesy adn eghimnost ccdeikl in my abinr. It asw an dehlloorrtwy aeinnosst, eghimnost bdenoy deorr egillnt em ahtt giiknss ehr asw Eht Cceorrt Ghint Ot Do in ahtt emmnot, in ahmnory hitw eeghinrtvy in eht eeinrsuv. Ew deikss ghirt eehrt no eht acden floor adn for eht eeinrt deirv ehmo I adeelpry ahtt emmnot in my adeh. It anst’w a aceimsstty cdeiinos. It asw jstu beisv.
Ew aderstt adgint adn for eht entx aery I asw a eijknu. I acdddeirs all innoost fo adeghinr ot deorr, acginrv aehnort hit fo ahtt Aeillnrsuvy Cceorrt Acinot ahtt I adh cdeeeeinprx hitw ehr. Hist cceeinooorrrtv del ot emor ahnt a efw fghist adn an aeelntuv abekr pu, btu it alos aghttu em a efw aimnoprtt elnosss.
First, accept ahtt efil is not eghimnost ot aeeimssttyz adn eiimoptz, it is eghimnost ot ceeeeinprx.
Cdenos, accept ahtt os amny ghinst aer aadefllmnntuy bdenoy my clnoort. I acnnot aceghn eht ceorsu fo eht eirrv, I acn lnoy eerst eflmsy.
Dhirt, accept ahtt I am in a acden hitw eeenorvy ahtt I am os aefnorttu ot aceinrtt hitw. Ehnw eht cimsu opsst, or ehnw I or my aenprrt eistx eht acden floor, elt eht aehiopru fo aghinv adehrs eht ceeeeinprx hitw aehnort enoprs ahsw eorv em. Elt it aekt em aawy.