In a video Bo Burnham talks about a tragedy facing children today: the state of the world leaves them looking down into their phones, taking anxious selfies, choosing social media over sleep, infinity over oblivion. That's a beautiful juxtaposition, infinity and oblivion. Everything forever and nothing forever. As I lay in bed typing this out choosing infinity over oblivion I'm thinking about how these two concepts fit so much of everything.

Till death do us part. Till oblivion do us uninfinity.

Public companies are not allowed stasis. They must infinity until they oblivion.

After you die maybe you oblivion or maybe you infinity good or maybe you infinity bad or maybe you more of whatever this is for infinity or maybe you more of whatever this is for infinity until oblivion.

Drug addicts chase infinity into oblivion.

Remember Facebook? Many years ago a friend made a Facebook page titled Everything Forever. The point was that when you liked the page you were done with liking things, you were free!

Microdose oblivion with writer's block and depression and unskippable ads and the DMV. Microdose infinity with entheogens and AI art and dating apps and NFL RedZone.

At times when I remember that my body's sensation of infinity is a myth and I in fact face oblivion someday I think what am I doing? Why am I watching so much, scrolling so much?

What do I actually care about? If I can find a shred of an answer to that question then it's my obligation to chase it infinitely. I have my own perspective which I find boring because I'm me but others find interesting because they're not me. It's my obligation to share my ideas because once I reach oblivion, if I haven't shared my ideas, so do they. There is never ever ever going to be another me for all of time until the universe dies a heat death in a trillion trillion years or until artificial general intelligence turns everything into pussy clits in thirty years.

My hard throbbing sticking point with pursuing anything is: What's the point? The best answers I've stumbled upon so far are to be myself and help people. Those are two pretty damn good points from my perspective. Being myself lets others be more comfortable being themselves which something something heaven on earth or at least less hellish on earth. Helping people gives people more agency to help people which something something heaven on earth or at least less hellish on earth.

Being myself and helping people are the most promising routes I see to improve wellbeing and reduce suffering. I care about improving wellbeing and reducing suffering and I want to pursue both in an enjoyable way and not an unappEAling way. Good to know.